What do you do when you see your boyfriend loves you... you see it, you hear it, its in his eyes and voice and mannerisms, but he doesnt tell you. how do you make him realize he loves you...

College has been everything I expected but not.

 

I haven't really made like the girlie friends on the floor who are always in each others rooms. I guess I'm just not girlie enough?

 

I've met Stacy, a girl that is just like me in almost every sense. Never thought I would find someone like that.

 

Never thought I'd party.. and actually enjoy it!

 

Thought I'd have to work hard... yupp.

 

Never thought I'd have to work THIS hard just to get a B!!! And actually be satisfied!!

 

Didn't realize how much sleep meant to me.

 

Still can't believe that I have the motivation, organization skills, and time management skills to get work done for 15 solid credits, plus work 20 hours a week, and still have time to do lots of stuff with my friends.

 

Life is passing by so quickly now!!

 

Never thought I'd be single. And be happy that way. And break up with a jerk. Wow.

 

Things have changed.

 

Can't wait to see whats next :-)

 

By the way, Memories Past has like 4 songs up that completely stomp you in the face. Plus they've been getting shows, having a group booking for them, and may be signed soon. So listen. I love them.

 

http://www.myspace.com/memoriespastmusic

 

 

Wow. So my friend Ted has been in three bands over the 4 years that I have known him. Now to hear a song that his drummer dave *boyfriend!* has edited and that they all performed? amazing. Please, let me introduce you to MEMORIES PAST, a band based out of Wellsboro, Pennsylvania. They are currently working on their first album, and have just posted a new song complete with vocals on their MySpace. Add them, add me, leave them comments and love, as you do to me!!!

 

http://www.myspace.com/memoriespastmusic

 

thanks guys! <3 <3

I have never in my life felt so much hatred, and yet been hurting so much as the same time.

 

Don't keep "finding" shit to give back to me, just so you can show up and bitch at me some more. Yeah, it may make you feel like shit, but you did a lot of shitty things as well and now I've got the balls to actually tell you and not let you trample me anymore. Fuck that. Yeah, I may be making decisions that you don't like, but you don't control my life anymore. You shouldn't have controlled it in the first place. I control my life now. I've gotta make my own mistakes and learn who I am.

 

And don't tell me how much you hate people. Especially my boyfriend. Don't you ever fucking dare to ANYONE go as far as to say that when you see them, you want to slit their throat. That both scares and angers me. You don't say shit like that. I don't care how much you hate someone, you don't say shit like that.

 

Whatever, now I have a paper to write. As much as it hurts because I did care about you and I did put all that effort in our relationship, we aren't fit for each other and I honestly have never felt so much anger toward someone before. I don't need you in my life. I'm just fine without you.

It's so hard when you don't know what to do.

 

Your boyfriend says something that really pisses off one of your friends. You agree with his reasons for disliking this friend, but don't want to see them hurt. It's an awkward position to be in. And I'd rather stay out of it...

 

Your ex just... either is like i miss you, i miss you, or.. he's like I just want to be with this other girl. And you're done dealing with it. You will always miss him a little because of how long you were together, but sometimes you have to let things go...

 

I just really don't know which way to go right now. A lot of different situations have come up and it's so hard to know what to do. There's no right answer to anything anymore.

 

Guess this is what growing up is. Why was I in such a hurry to get here?!!!!